cause i can belch the alphabet..just doubledouble dare me.

ahhh bonjour bloggers!
wtfudgecake...WHY AM I HUNGRY AT HALF 1am!?!?!?!!!
thats madness! :L

never mind..cba to get up to go find some munchies :L

yes yes im lazy ;)

well...tomo is jo's party!
actually looking forward to it A LOT.
but not letting myself imagine it as i still dont know if jee's coming yet!?!!
her mum keeps saying "we'll see"
so she's on a night of sucking up.
i really really really really really REALLY hope she can come!
but appa ryan from bilbs (who ive spoke to on fb and is really cool) is going..so i get to meet him (Y)

ive got a day at my vati's tomo anyway.
saw my cousins today and got attacked several times.
got some groovy pics out of the photowar though ;)
tehe :)

talking to Lh on fb atm. :)
STILL DONT KNOW WHAT TO WEAR FOR JO'S PARTY!!!!
ARGHHH!!!!!!
tho ill probs wear this floaty (none slutty! shock horror!) dress i have with a purple belt that makes my waist actually disappear :L
which is always a plus ;)

ahhh mr brightside ♥
watched micheal mcintyre t'other night.
he's really funny.
shame he reminds me of josh.
*shrug*..guess that cant be helped.
just reminds me of earlier this year, me and josh clanging about in the kitchen getting ice lollies..pineapple ones..which turned out amusingly to be actual frozen pineapples on sticks! :L
and we watched micheal mcintyre..and laughed..a lot! :)
happy times eh ♥
never mind..im not really depressive tonight, and so i can happily look back on some things :)
hehe. :D
jee ♥

well..im still hungry..but going to bed soon.
as im at my daddy's at 10.30 i think.
til 4ish.
then gonna pick up Lh from uptown.
and if jee's coming - which i really hope she is!!! - then ill get her to get the half 4 bus back to mine. :)
s'all good xD
and i randomly cant wait for those two to meet?
hahaha :L
tis gonna be awkward, but ace. :)
i mean..jee's met Bibbs...so now she has to meet 'the missus' :L hahahaha :P

good grief..lh is sending mean girls quotes at me!
nighty night :)

toodles!!

Lora :) xx

p.s. blurry pic is of dress i think im wearing tomo

murrrr ;)

well :)
its all changed around now!! pahaha ;)
jee's gonna come to jo's party on wednesday. :D ♥
and even though im meant to be at cinema? :L :L
but gonna have to cancel it as i really wanna go to the party now!!

but...

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO WEAR!!! D;
arghhhh.

and im usually the one who plans it all about 2 weeks in advance!!
but because it's only just final...i dont know!!!!!!! :L :L :L
i dont wanna wear my katy perry dress again cause i've worn it to one of jo's parties before.
and i didnt see anything while shopping today! :L
good grief.

so i honestly dont know :L :L
gonna look through pics on pc in a sec.

im in a right good mood :)
jee's defo going..as long as her mum lets her.
which she should HOPEFULLY do as she has no reason not to?
she's working at her dad's shop in the morning at like 9, so im being forced (as part of the terms and conditions) to go to derby with her at like..8am :L pahaha. :P
me at 8am after drinking = mmmmm!!! ;)
LOL :)

i just want her over :) eeep :D

im discussing what to wear with Lh atm.
hmm..gonna quickly look through pc pics to see any ideas. ^^

...just nosyed....STILL HAVE NO IDEA!!
arghhhh!!!!!!!!! :L
damn i wish bibbs and lh werent bloody sizes 6-8 and 8-10-12 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DAMN THEM!!! :L

ill just go naked.
SORTED! ;)

toodles!!

Lora :) xx

p.s. have added really old pics to this post ;)

i want a cool rider ;)

ahhh bonjour :)
well..crimbo was tres fun ;)
i got.....

My cats (though got them a month ago) :)
A wii fit plus.
MASSIVE slab of choc that's gonna take me about 65398080 days to get through!!
More choccs - Seashells and Lindt ;) mmmmmmm.
Yet more choccies - malteasers, pink smarties, bueno ;)
2 Micheal McIntyre dvds! LMAO! Nice one fam ;)
Lady Gaga - Fame Monster cd :)
2 tickets (me and mutti) to see Brendan Cole on his tour on the 5th of Jan! LMAO!
The tickets for me and Lh to see 30 seconds to Mars in Feb ;)
Really groovy long fluffy socks with bobbly bits :D (Y)
Pink hippo slippers! LOL!
2 massive..uhm..tubes? packets? of PARMA VIOLETS! :D (josh, thank your mother for them)
Loads of animal related shizz..mainly penguins and horses :P
Vair cool tee that says 'toastbusters' on it from blue banana ;)
Tartan tights!! Also from blue banana ;)
Fluroscent pink smiley socks :)
A pretty flutterby necklace and earring set.
2 Willowtree ornaments! :D that makes 4 now in my collection ;)
And other bits and bobs :)

i did tres well me thinks ;)
pahaha :P

well...im in another pickle. :L
avec my new friend Benjamin.
he likes me..a lot!
and he is vair nice..and has snakebites ;)
butbutbut..now i dunno what to do about jee? :/
do i go out with him..and then dump him or something if she decides to choose me?
or do i just turn him down now and risk it?
hmm.
i may just go on a few dates with him or something...*ponders*..i dunno...ill work it out :L
ill stick a pic of him on here tho (Y) haha :L
he keeps calling me princess? ive honestly never been called that xD LOL! :P

well yesterday, i did indeed once again get attacked by my cousins and various ribbons and cracker hats! :L
as per ;)
was very fun though :) hehe.
mum told dad about me and josh.
yeah i kinda started xmas morning crying because i'd pretended i was still with him as donna caught me off guard with "what are you getting josh for xmas?" when i was a bit tipsy :L
hmmm. (N)
im alright though :)
listening to some cascada song on my ipod? lou's bloomin itunes ;)

oh yeah, she came round mine t'other day.
like REALLY early! :L
and helped my mum out in le kitchen? LOL :P :P
im seeing her tomo :)
at 11am ish ;) s'all good :D tehe.

right..nothing else to write atm :)
cba..TIRED!!

toodles!!

Lora :) xx

im going down in flames for you ♫

self inflicted - katy perry
i LOVE her.
she's brilliant :)

♫ im still breathing, but we've been for a while, this sickness has no cure, we're going down for sure ♪
im still breathing ;) also an AWESOME song :D
hehe.

im in quite a good mood still :)
clare (josh's mum) came round for a few hours tonight.
had so much fun :L
she ended up drunk sitting on the floor with me :L
and we both started crying when i was talking about my childhood and my dad etc.
haha :)
then had a good moan about men.
good grief.
ive had enough of them..and im only 16 :L :L

was v.fun tonight though :)
went round lou's earlier too.
she's coming over tomo morning at 9.30!!! D;
im not getting up til 9 :L pahaha! :P
ill be in jimjams!! ;) LOL!
and she's staying til 12, and then dad's picking me up at half 12 :) hehe. :D ♥
shall be tres fun ;) xD

dum de dum.
im actually speaking to josh on fb.
we're friends now.
hmm..lets see how that works out.
as we appa cant talk about feelings anymore.
though i happily tell all my friends what im feeling :L
its weird..i never thought i'd make a BEST friend at college :)
but jee is now :)
my 3 best friends. ♥
my sister, my twin and my lover ;) pahahahaha :D

i kissed a girl ♫ LOL :) irony!

well ive been getting plenty of lezzy jibes recently :L
from lh and scot in partic. gah :L
n.mind..ill live ^^

actually went shopping with scot yesterday.
met kimmy and kursty.
that was....very awkward :L
paha :)
but got lou's pressie. (Y)
nomnom :)

josh is pestering me to finish this blog.
makes a change. :L

hmm..
one good thing out of this mess..
i dont feel anything for matt anymore :)
a year ago, i was slowly turning insane over him :L
seriously.
2 years ago actually..was when i went mad.
i started talking to spiders..and stars.
for about a year.
then the whole matt thing kicked off.
hmm.
i can remember one night, he didnt text me for a whole day, i actually sat on the settee rocking.
and kept getting up to change settees.
hmm...mad times :L
lh can vouch that that was true..though she was on the pc and wasnt paying much attention :L
haha :)

i wish i had a best boy friend.
scot's the closest thing to.
but thing's with him now..arent awkward as such...but we're just not bffs. :L
havent been since josh.
shame.
*shrugs*..things end up that way i guess.
knew it was gonna happen.

haha :) im getting better with my predictions.
i didnt have to look as i crossed the road yesterday at the lights :)
and i was the only one who crossed about a second before the light changed to amber ;)
and it happened twice ^^
im good ;)

good grief..now jee's nagging me!! :L
hahaha :)
this blog's pretty shit tbh :L
n.mind.

oh, when im 18, im gonna go mad. :)
getting a cupcake tattoo on my foot :D
found it on google yesterday.
looks BLOODY AWESOME!!!! :D :D
haha :)
and getting snakebites :)

for now, im gonna get my nose pierced.
and maybe scaffolding (Y)
looks pretty ace tbh :)

gonna go with jee to get her tattoo done. :)
hopefully! :L
if her mother ever lets her out/lets me round.
blimey o reily.

lou suggested herself, robin (her bf), me and jee went on a double date after xmas. :)
ice skating and the cinema ;)
hahaha :L
louise iceskating is HILARIOUS!!!
she's crazy legs :D
really really really fast, mad legs going everywhere and falls over a lot!! :D pahahaha :P
im just really slow, but i hardly ever fall ;)
HAH :P
be nice to meet robin though (Y) :) best friend check ;)

ahh, texting lh atm too :)
love that loon ;)
im in such a loving mood :D

ok..finishing this now..
cba ;)

love y'all ;)

toodles!!

Lora :) xx

Fat lip ;)

hahaha! this song reminds me of the showcase SOOO bad :D
of me and scot sitting at the back, basically just talking the whole time :P
and shaun playing fat lip xD
pahahahaha :)
im in a much happier mood today :) :)

ended up really bored last night, so got the 7-30 black cat to ilkeston, met lou, went to the bank..she forgot her bank card...so went back to hers...met scot..went back to the bank and walked down to tescoooo. :)
then lou told me that josh was working that night :L and he works at that tesco. but i didnt see him :)

i think its really funny how like, everyone apart from my 'rents know about jee :L
pahahaha ;P
im not telling my mum until something happens anyway.

♫ fill my little world right uuup :)
hmm..im gonna end up a chav now that i've got all of Bibbs's music on my ipod!!
pahahahaha :D good grief xP

mmm..ewan mcgregor ;)
i had a v. nice dream about him the night before last ;P
involving himself, myself, a bathtub, and a kama sutra game ;)
pahahahahaha :D

♫ voted, most likely to end up on the back of a milkbox drink, looks like im letting them down, cause 7..75 isnt worth an hour of my hard working time :)
Katy Perry - Fingerprints :D
♫ i wanna break the mould wanna break the stereotype :)

havent got a lot to write on this blog actually :L
mutti's off shopping (Y) she's getting me some hairdye ;)
same red, but it needs redoing as my roots are terriblleeeeeee!!!
pahaha :D

listening to gives you hell now. ♥
haha...this may just be my song about josh. :)
or to josh. ^^
nyaaaa ;D
just the chorus anyway ;)
♫ when you see my face, hope it gives you hell hope it gives you hell, when you walk my way hope it gives you hell hope it gives you hell ;) ♪

off now :)
will put some pics on this x]

♫ WHEN YOU SEE MY FACE HOPE IT GIVES YOU HELL HOPE IT GIVES YOU HELL!!!! ;) ♫

toodles!!

Lora :) xx

Ripples..

ahhhh.
i thought i'd gotten rid of the pain and depression.
evidentally.....not.
ouch.

remind me not to ever watch a romance movie again.
especially not one about losing people.
moulin rouge.

the song on the end credits was one we used in drama.
for this concentration camp thing. called erica.

hmmm.
had a good night really.
me, lou and scot went to tesco.
bought moulin rouge, some mac n cheese and pick me up.

the adults arent back til late.
nothing to do now.......

loss is a weird sensation.
mine's a feeling that your heart has been cut by a huge dirty blade, and is throbbing constantly.
sometimes when you're happy..it fades..
but then when your alone, with time to think...you feel it again.
i dont like to be alone anymore.

and what josh and jodie are doing..is just adding salt, lemon and acid to the wound.
very dramatic i know.
i like poetry.
i havent done any in a while actually.
or any songs.

spoke to matt again today.
amazingly, it didnt bring back any old feelings.
just made me reminisce a bit.
last year was so different.

im off to bed now.
i hope lou's music ive stolen helps cheer me up. ♥
i apologise for this blog.

josh, i hope you get what you deserve..and i pray to god, that you dont mess jodie up like you've messed me up.

xxx

Fighteeeeeer. ;)

listening to power 'fuck you' songs in this mood is the best thing :)
♫ so i wanna say thankyooou, makes me that much stronger, makes me work a little bit harder, makes me darn much wiiiiser..thanks for making me a...fiiighteeeeer ♫ :D

just nosying through Bibb's pictures of the Bilborough Snowball.
i was a tad miffed that i wasnt invited/offered a ticket by her.
but then she said she was on holiday when they were selling them and had to get tommi to buy her own..or she would've got me one.
so she's off the hook ;) hehe ♥
plus dont think i'd have had fun with jodie and josh all over each other.
omgooosh...if i could've..i should've taken jee.
bloody hell that would've been funnyyyy!! :L pahahahahaha :D

mwa ha ha ha..
have put
'Mousse T - Horny As A Dandy' on xD
LMAO :P

listening to "in too deep - sum 41" now :)

brrr..its FREEEZING in here D;

hmm..
xmas in 7 days :)
shall be gooood me thinks :D

brrr..*shivers*

havent got a lot to say...
may post another blog later :P

toodles!!

Lora :) xx

Maybe it's not my weekend..but it's gonna be my year ♫

eeep :D
all time low - weightless
favvy song atm :)
and i have their cd ♥

today should have been ace.
it was gonna be me, jee, annie, jess, lou and jodie at le park having a drink and a larf.
instead, im not happy with jodie and she didnt reply to my v.long text i sent her earlier (will tell you about that in a bit)..jee couldn't come tonight cause of her 'rents and she didnt even come to college :/ which put me in a right pissy mood all day and annie kept telling me off and cheering me up by saying i looked like a smacked arse :L
annie cancelled too..family comittments..and jess t and me decided it wouldnt be any good just us two with lou and jo.
so i ended up going round lou's on my own, stealing all her ipod songs and having a natter and eating pizza. :L
was actually fun..not as fun as it could have been :/

but yeah..had to clean out the donkeys this morning too. D;
yippee.

my plan for next week (i hope!) -

Monday - See Jee and have her sleep over.
Tuesday - See Jee again til she goes home, go to dad's in evening.
Wednesday - Meet up with Lou.
Thursday - Meet up with Lou again if she can, go to dad's in evening.
Friday - Xmas :D
Saturday - Go to nanny's for annual boxing day munchout. Basically me eating a packet of leftover pringles and a few cobs. :L

oo...ill do an explanation of what happens on my xmas :D
xmas eve....
i go over to dad's about 5pmish. we watch tele. eat a takeout. he drinks beer. donna (his gf) drinks cider. i get forced to try pretty much every type of alcohol they have in a 100 metre radius, and end up v.tipsy. we laugh at the annual xmas film (it was calender girls last year ;P) and watch royle family. donna goes to bed at 11pmish. dad stays up for 30 mins-1 hour longer. he sets my little camp bed up that is bound to collapse anyday. he goes to bed. i stay awake til 3am watching catherine tate/little britain/music videos on demand and texting LH (and jee this year :D).
xmas day.....
i get woken up at about 9amish. i do NOT look attractive! :L go to the bathroom and cover up uglyness with too much makeup. :) dad makes some kind of joke about me spending 30 mins in the bathroom. i eat toast/crunchy nut. i give dad and donna pressies. i get my pressies. we all open them. :) pack all pressies into car. pack donna's mum/dad/brother's pressies into backseat with me and i get piled on when we go around corners. go to donna's mum and dads. open more pressies. hand out more. drink limeade at about 11am? :L say bye, and dad drops me off at auntie jans. quickly dash upstairs, say hi to kirsty, get told for about 30 mins what pressies she got off her dad. go get ready with kirsty. go downstairs. greet mad loons....i mean family. :) have dinner. get attacked with cameras/ribbon which stayed on my fingers the whole night and i woke up with it still on the next morning! go to living room. open pressies etc. leave olds to watch cheesy musical. fight over 3 nintendo ds's with 4 kids (me, kirst, emma, matt). say bye to loons. go to bed. talk to kirst in the next room via ds. ;)

TADA :D
i hope you enjoyed that!
pahahahaha :D

anyways...im pretty mad at josh now.
yeah i kinda hate him.
when i asked him earlier if him and jodie were gonna get together...he said "anything could happen".
pfft.
bastard.
i still have his hair gel.
and blades of glory dvd.
hmph.

im not happy with jo either.
cause of last night (explained in my other blog).

hmph.
anyway...bloody shattered now..

night bloggers! :)

toodles!!

Lora :) xx

Events..

bonjour loyal readers!
imma fraid today's blog is gonna be a really pissy one aimed at a certain person..
...well...people.
but i dont hate one.

basically...went round to Bibbs's today for a bit cause i hadnt seen her in donks.
ive missed that loon! :)
and she said we had to pop to jodie's for a bit as she'd left her scarf there..
so she phoned jo..and jo said josh was gonna be round.
bibbs asked if i'd be ok with it..and i said id be rate.
so we went round jo's...
and waved to a random santa just outside her front door xD
then walked inside..and josh was already in there.
he said to both me and lou "did you wave at santa?"
bibbs wasnt listening..so i replied "yep"
and THAT ...folks...was our amazing conversation tonight!
we seriously didnt talk again.

the thing that REALLY pissed me off..was jodie being all over him all night.
fair do's she was tipsy..
but thats no excuse :
i was blates sitting in the same room, about a metre away from them..
and she was just putting her head on his shoulder all night..
and giving him right flirty looks.
:
and then went to sleep with her head on his lap.

i.

am.

NOT.

impressed!!!

i dont wanna fall out with her.
but this has REALLY narked me off!!!!

even if i'm getting over him now..
still...
it's only been 3 fucking weeks..actually 2 weeks and 6 days..but who's counting. :L
so im NOT chuffed at all with that.

and i hate him.

:)

that's all m'dears :)
obtw..went shopping today and bought a new coat ;)
and also got some new gold sneakers ;) shiinyyy
and the new all time low cd :D
which i plan to listen to when i go to beddy byes :)
really need a shower...not gonna wash my hair...ceebs xP

that's all folks!! ;)

toodles!!

Lora :) xx

Bury me. ♫

hallooo dar :)
well...i thought i'd be lovely and write ANOTHER blog :D

today was pretty boring actually :L
farm livestock was HELL D;
but last lesson we had health, and i held cornflake the corn snake (tehe), a tarantula and some ferrets :D
awwwuhh..i want a ferret :/
my mum's a bit mean though and wont let me have one cause of the spazzacats (N)

tomorrow dont have to go to college.
authorized absence ;)
HELL YEAH :D
so me..and just izzy now..are going to derby :L
pahaha..massive fail or what?
but i need to go anyway to get my mum's xmas pressie :)

*sneezes*
oops!

mum booked 2 standing tickets for 30 seconds to mars next february!
eeep :D
james (lh's bf) might be going..so if he is...jee is coming. :)

Guns and Roses :) ♥
Overlistened to them in '07 baaaaaaad!! :L
Yet i cba to change the song :D

it's bibbs's snowball tonight. :)
she's trying to get this lad called robin.
hope it all goes well ;)
pahahaha :D
good grief..im the singleton now D;
well...kinda single but tyed to someone? :L

on thursday, jee is sleeping mine again. :)
and annie's sleeping at jess t's.
so we're gonna go down vicki park and meet up with lou and jodie ;D
though staying sober this time me thinks!!
pahahahaha :D
even though last time was BLOODY FUNNY!!! xD
s'all gooood :D

toodles!!

Lora :) xx

Sex bum :)

wowa..im actually in a really good mood :D
hahaha :)


looking forward to seeing lou next week though :D
hopefully gonna have a sleepover either here or there.
i prefer her house though ;)
hint hint bibbs!! :P hahaha, i know she reads this ♥ ilu!!

also, trying to get jee to sleep over thursday, so we could go to vicki park in the evening if she fancies and meet up with lou and jodie :) ive missed those two :L

♫ sex BUM sex BUM...yourra sex BUM :D
my interpretation of the classic tom joney song ;) pahahaha :D

well i LOVE LOVE LOOOOVVVEEE my new jumper!!! :D
its BLOODY GORGEOUS!!!!
ill see if i can find a photo of it on le internet ;)

maneater - nelly furtado.
ok this (along with milkshake - kelis) is my theme tune!!
pahahahahahaha :D

just looking at some old pics atm :)
ahhh...good times :D
hehe. ^^

had a right feast in tutorial today :L
was v. fun :)
though i was being a bit of a grump (sorry jee!) when everyone had photos with 2 pringles in their mouths (classic duck pose) and i wouldnt have one.
dunno why...just got really freakishly self concious. :L
my bad everyone!! :) ♥

omgosh..this jumper smells of bibbs? :L
*sigh* i miss the smell of her!!
she smells so homely!! :P
pahahahaha :D
probably because everyday in may, june and july i went round her house in the morning, then when we had exams, i went back to hers afterwards :D
so i saw her basically everyday and always spent loads of time at hers ^^
plus went on holiday with her :P
im gonna get her to come on holiday with me and the folks this year!
YEAHHH :D
fun times ;)

hmm..i think i ought to plan a huuuge trip for next year. :)
if jee can drive (and she's taking her lessons now so lets hope she can get a car by then)...although izzy is doing lessons and she's already got a car :D
so one of those two can drive...though we may have to use 2 cars! :L
if not, we'll go by train. :P
or someone can sit on the floor of the car xD pahaha!
as there's 6 of us..hmm...actually...there wont be enough room for 2 people to sit on the floor!! :L
hahahahahaha xD
well we'll take 2 cars :)
yeahhh ♥
and drive down to newquay. :)
and spend like, 5 days there or something :D :D :D
yeya! (Y)

sounds like a plan ;)
haha :)

wowa this is a right essay of a blog!! :D
hmm..tomo should be pretty alright actually.
3 hours of hugh and linda, but everyone's doing xmassy themed stuff..so 3 hours of just basically messing around. :)
though we actually do that normally xD
pahaha :P
hmm...wednesday will be rate too...i know we're watching a dvd in nursing..but not sure what else. :)
thursday should be pretty good too :)
if jee sleeps over
ill also get annie to get the ferrets out with me if jo (tutor) says s'ok :D
awwwuhh, nanook and louie ♥
fezzas :D

god my pc HATES http://www.newlook.co.uk/ :L
pahahaha :P
well ill put the link of my new oompa-loompa-jumper on here....
http://www.newlook.co.uk/1697406/169740604/ProductDetails.aspx

yeahhhh!! :D

.........why am i listening to miley cyrus??
*changes song*
.........
Linkin Park - Numb. :)
LOVE this song right now ;) ♥

well the longer i make this blog...the more piccies i can add to it! :D
yeya!! xD hehehehe. :P

oooo...ill write little notes to everyone :)

Bibbs..
Can i sleep yours next monday or something? :) ♥
We'll get some ben and jerry's in, play on the sims and watch some movies :D
Love you :) ♥ xxxxxxxx

Josh..
Thought i'd just mention that my new jumper is one of those really baggy ones that goes off one shoulder.
You always wanted me to get one....:L

Lh..
Miss you already duuuude!! :(
And i'll try and arrange a party (as seen above) for New Years ;)

Right my chums and chumettes...
As this blog is FREAKISHLY long..
Ill be off on my jolly way now :)
Good luck Jee and well done for reading all of that on your phone! ;)
PAHAHA :D

Byee all! ;)

Toodles!!

Lora :) xx

Your beauty is not just an art ♫

hallo darr my fellow odd bloggers ;)
im right in the mood for writing another blog for some reason!
hahahaha :D

well atm im listening to undisclosed desires. :)
muse c'est BRILLIANT :D tres tres muchly :)
also talking to bibbs.
i miss that girl! :( :(
i miss our random chats about harry potter, how miss mcmanus blates should get with mr morrow and 'the list' which we still havent finished! :P

spoke to jee again today...
actually...
i dont believe ive had a day where i havent spoken to her at least once in about a month!
hahaha :D

on a slightly worse note..it's been 2 weeks and 3 days...
im not counting down the days or anything..*rolls eyes* :L
bleurgh.
feeling a lot better than i was.
not depressed anymore.
but..i just miss a lot of things.
like dancing to she-wolf while i washed the dishes.
and i attacked him with soap bubbles and basically soaked his shirt through.
the picnic at his this summer after an exam day.
playing mariokart and attempting to beat him..i think i did once or twice?

the last proper time i saw him wasn't very nice though. :/
that was when he was being really nasty to me.
and even said i had too much makeup on.
pffft..he's a boy?
he doesnt know about makeup for heavens sake.

anyway...enough about him.
he's part of my past.
he can stay there.
seeing as he's not talking to me like a friend.
he can bugger off.
im NOT having another re-run of matt.
i do wish to live!!! D;

gonna dye my hair blue and black i think :)
jee's suggestion (Y)
s'all good. ^^


so..chrimbooo is nearly upon us bloggers?
only 12 days to go ;)
pahaha :D
cant wait :)
it's gonna be good. :D
im glad i have jee ♥
and im also glad lh has unlimited texts!! :P
i wish bibbs did. D; damn her and her £10 credit :L hahahaha :D

muse ♥


ooo, lily allen was BRILLIANT t'other day!!! :D :D :D
sooo good!
me and lh had super sore throats by the end of it!!
hahahahahahaha :P


need to wrap annie's xmas pressie.
hmm.


enough rambles from me :)
toodles!! :)

Lora :) xx

What if i say im not like the others..♫

Spoke to Josh last night.
He didnt seem to respond much..so after a while..i didnt bother.

I feel like making lists....

Reasons why im glad im single.
1. I dont have to make as much effort by texting.
2. Less effort clothes and makeup-wise.
3. I can snog whoever i want with no conciquences.
4. No more worrying about jealousy.
5. No more worrying about his fidelity.
6. More freedom to talk to whoever i want.
7. No more arguments.
.......ok ive ran out :L

Reasons why i miss being in a relationship
1. Having someone to talk to about the crap you do everyday like not enough makeup, the busyness of the bus, long college hours, how long your fingernails are etc.
2. Having someone to call at night and have to whisper incase you get caught.
3. Having someone to go out with all the time who's always happy to see you.
4. Having a second family.
5. The hugs, the kisses, the pure closeness physically and emotionally.
6. The feeling that you're wanted.
7. The self confidence that no matter what state you look like, that person will always love you.
8. Being able to brag to your friends.
9. Feeling superior to singletons.
10. Having a whole album on your phone dedicated to that person.
11. Being able to answer all the "your other half" notes on Facebook.
12. Having someone to talk about to new people or distant family members.
13. Not being lonely and isolated.
14. The bliss.
15. The funny moments.
16. The times i always did something stupid, like fall over, or trip over some weights...
17. Playfighting.
18. Tickling.
19. "In A Relationship" status on facebook.
20. Just hanging out together and talking.
21. Being able to give bitchy looks to anyone ogling your partner.
22. The security.
23. Nonestop texting all day.
24. The 'moments' when you stare into that person's eyes and realise that they've become your everything and that your heart may explode with just how much you love them.

Ohh dear...well the latter list GREATLY outweighs t'other one :L hahaha..:P

Toodles :)

Lora :) xx

no feelings..

hey there.


well, ive finally realised that me and josh are over.
i spoke to him last night too.
that was.....hard. :/
this whole thing is like what i went through this january with matt....but about 1000 times worse.
my whole being hurts.
and i havent been able to breathe in a while.





went to see new moon today.
that was a mistake.
ive always said ...him and edward share some qualities, just the mannerisms.
and it reminded me of him.
flinching.





i came out of the cinema back in my zombie state.
not particularly nice.





now ive got time to think about him again.
........i dont have any words to describe this sense of loss.
its like nothing ive ever experienced.
no pain, just numbness, absolutely nothing.
i can feel that i should be feeling things, pain, upset, love for my friends, gratefulness.
but i cant feel anything.





i dont want to love again.



i havent decided how im gonna get through this yet.
im still working on a plan.
at the moment, im just keeping myself busy all the time.
thats why im looking forward to college tomorrow.
being around people always cheers me up.
but noone understands just how much this hurts.
i put on a brave face.





even though scot says he's felt heartbreak before.
i dont think he's had it like this, not with me anyway.



i think my cut's gonna scar.
i hope not.





and music.
i cant listen to love songs.



it hurts to hear louise talk about him.





everything about my life this year has been about him.
since april.
i cant even remember what i was like before then.





he doesnt love me.
he may care about me enough to not want to hurt my feelings.
but thats it.





i dont know if it's a good or bad thing that he doesnt.
good because i can try and get over it.
bad because it hurts.





i decided on a clean break.
ouch.



muse.
they're safe.
my personal haven.
and fall out boy.
thank god for their pointless songs that noone can understand.





short term, i breathe, eat, drink, sleep, be brave.
long term, i cant see what's gonna happen.
and i dont like being blind.
its worrying.





i was right.
i told them i was gonna end up malicious.
i am.
im sorry scot for being nasty.
get on with your life.
noone deserves me as such a burden.





but ill find someone else to burden with my problems.
thats inevitable.
im such a nasty person.
i dont mean to be.





i guess this is my just dessert.
yey.

p.s. here come the tears..

Love bipolar..

Yeah i'm listening to Katy Perry - Hot and Cold (Y)

Uggh.

Well, me and Josh broke up. D;

bleurgh.

Last night was pretty awesome (Y)
Apart from breaking up obvs.
But me and Jee (Jess H) went down to the park and met up with Jess T, Annie, Lauretta, Scot and later Lou and Jo came down. (Y)
Was bloody funny!!
Annie drunk is SOOOOO funny!! :L

Then Josh came to the park cause he'd gone on my facebook and seen some emails that me and Scot had sent each other. :/
Scot's fell out with me now cause he feels Jee has replaced him.
And atm, she has.
She's my little light in this big black hole.

Feel crap today.

Im wearing my pj top, shorts, smudged eyeliner, hair that looks like i've been dragged through several bushes (oo err) and tummy ache D;
Bleuurgh.

Anyway...got nothing else to write on this.
Im just not feeling anything at the mo.

Toodles,

Lora x

obtw, the pic is of me and jee.

I will never surrender :)

Hallooo darr spazzaloons ;D

Well many groovy things have happened recently.
:)

Went to Bibbs' t'other day.
Was so much fun to just hang out and eat pizza and mac cheese :D
And pineapples! ;)
Hahahaha :P ive missed that loon!!

Me and Josh had another fall out t'other day.
He called me annoying? :/
Nice or what? :L
Fortunately im over it now.
Im lovely like that ;) ^^

Went to see New Moon earlier ;D
Was SOOOO ace!!!!!!!
:P better than twlight!
Me and Lh were at the front of the queue, and as mutti gave the man the tickets, she shouted RUUUUN, and we did!!! :L we were first inside the theatre room and got first choice of seats!!! xD ahahahaha :P was tres amusing ;D

Oh, went shopping in notts today :)
Ended up getting mousse foundation, powder, mascara, a Bullet For My Valentines tee, a black (slightly see through) long sleeved tee (that lh also got! ;D) and some MITTENS! :D
Pink!!!
And knittedd!!!!! xD love them!! :P hahahahaha.

Todays been pretty darn fun tbh ;D
Me and Lh are just lounging around tomo probs :L
And hopefully dying my hair!! :P ahaha.

Sleeping over hers tomo too :)

College is pretty ace these days :)
I still miss school loads, but college is great ;D

Lh got into bilbs btw :)
Hehehe ;D

Right...tis all for now me thinks :)
Write again soooooon! :)

Toodles!!

Lora :) xx

Hurrah :)

Ahhh bonjour mon pallies ;)
Well today has been a larf and a half :D
Went round Josh's this afternoon and played on the wii with his sister until he got back from col.
Yeah i dont have col on fridays ^^ (h5)
Then we just chatted, watched scrubs, friends etc. ;D

My lovely mutti has tidied my roomy so now i can watch tele!!!
Haha :D
And she stuck my 3d poster of Twilight up ;)
Hurrah! :D
Ohh and she bought me these twi stickers especially for ds lite's that are now living on my ds :D
But i havent put the front one on because i didnt wanna cover up the heart i stuck on months ago ^^

Sooo i should be getting a new phone next weekend :)
Oooo and Lh is coming down on thursday!
She has her bilbs interview ;)
And we're (hopefully both) going to see New Moon :)
I defo am with muttidoodle, but Lh has to book the tickets yet!
Get phoning girl! :D

Went to Jodie's with Lou last night. :L
Scot wanted us to call for him..and we needed a brolley, so we did.
It was POURING it down! :O
Havent seen it rain so much in yonks!!!
But then we made him walk back in the rain by himself...
and stole his brolley ;)
......which we broke 5 minutes later!!
Hahahahahahaha :D
But later fixed!!!!! :D
Then Josh met us at Jodie's and we chit-chatted ^^

At my vatis tomoooo. :)
Hopefully going somewhere warm and dry!
LOL :)

Obtw i have a college trip to The Deep next wednesday ;)
Ahh next week is gonna be ace :D
Normal days Monday and Tuesday...
But a trip on wednesday...
And thursdays are always dead short ;D

Hurrah!

*yawn*
well im shattered...
And im only doing this blog because Wolf wanted me to yesterday. :L
www.scottysnippets.blogspot.com

Niiight loons ;)

Toodles!!

Lora :) xx

Supermassive Black Hole :)

Bonjour :)
Havent written to this in aaaages!! ;O
Aha..:P
How many days?
Hmm...
7 ;O LOL :D

Well it's been a really good half term :P
I am now ADDICTED to Muse :)
Supermassive Black Hole
Uprising
Hysteria
Plug In Baby
Guiding Light
LOVE THEM! :D

Annie came back to mine for a bit today :) she wanted a rattie cage as hers were fighting so i've lent her the hamster cagey :) aha.

So..half term..:)
Monday - Hmm...cant remember what i did! Hmm...:P
Tuesday - Went into Notts shopping with mutti :) she spilt my 7up cherry :/ and drank most of my milkshake! When i payed for it! And offered to buy her one!!! But she did buy me a blue hairbow and a blue sparkley beret :D then went to vati's, then he dropped me off at Lh's xD
Wednesday - I dont think me and Lh did a lot :L reckon that was the day we slept in til about 11ish and just lounged around til mutti picked us up to take us to Kirsty's :) then me, Lh and Kirsty all went round her dad's and met Ryan (Y) and played with her puppy :D sooo cute! Ryan is really funny :L and such a good sport seeing as we totally wrecked his bed! LOL! :D
Then Kirsty slept over mine with Lh :)
Thursday - Me, Lh and Kirst went into Derby for a spot of shopping :D was tres fun xD then we slept over mine again :P
Friday - Dragged our butts out of bed, cant actually remember what we did :L i dont think it was a lot tbh xD then slept over Lh's
Saturday - Finally got up at about 1.30pm :L LOL! Went back to mine and me, Lh and Bibbs had a funky sleepover :D
Sunday - Bibbs went early in the morning and we met Russ at Tescooo to drop Lh off. :(

It seems SO weird not seeing her everyday now! I miss her! And i only saw her yesterday!!! LOL! Seems like about Tuesday already xD hahaha. :P

Tonight Josh came round for teaaa :) i haven't seen him at all this week 'cause he went on holiday!! :( tut. C'est tres tres gai.

Hmm..tomo should be adequately boring me thinks :L
Got Farming and Livestock, IOLP, Ritaaaaa for Behaviour (i think) and Health.
But Becky's left now! :/ gahh.
Today was actually fairly good :) blodge was boring, obvs. :L
But Handling and Husbandry Theory was good because we held the ratties and mice :D
And a mad gerbil attacked me! LOL!!!

Have finished the assignment in for tomo so don't need to worry about it now :) wooo! :L aha.
But need to find a way to get it to college..hmm..i soooo need a memory stick!! D;

Right now chums :) i'm off me thinks. :D
Btw, all of you lot listen to Muse ;)
They are AWESOME!!!! :D

Toodles!!

Lora :) xx