I don't use this blog anymore, but i thought it only right to post at least once this year, and i might as well do it at 3.50am instead of sleeping.
A lot of shit has happened over the past few years. Some of it good, some not so.
I'm living back with Mum again, but we live with Neil in Mansfield now.
My room is tiny and i have bunk beds.
Tilly is at the bottom of my feet asleep.
It's four years later, and suddenly i find myself in nearly the same place as i was back then.
Slightly baffling, and i think me and Josh are both quite confused about how we ended up here but, it's nice.
You see, i don't know what to write here anymore. I don't talk about my feelings often, and only when i've been prodded/pressured to do so, or i'm battered.
After Lh left, i was a shell of a being. I barely remember 2011, i just know i stayed in my bedroom for most of it. And 2010 was just a big shitheap regardless.
Last year was okay, it was fun. August was good.
But anyway, after the whole Lh thing, i guess i kind of closed up. And i haven't opened fully since.
I feel things again now, i suppose that's the only useful side effect of my contraceptive injection. The rush of emotions at first was horrible though, i was crying over everything!
..... I just tried really hard to open up and all i've written is that i'm "quite confused".. i thought i'd written loads!
Right...
Tonight i feel:
Tired (very VERY tired), confused.... that's it really! I'm neither here nor there.
God i'm shattered. I have the last day of my ECDL course tomorrow, yippeeeee...
I might do another post at some point this year.. we'll see. I'll probably forget.
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