Monday 11 October 2010

KoRn ♥






KoRn last night were AMAZING. ♥
i got some videos of them, but my gay phone hasn't came up with them -____-
it does that sometimes.
i know they're on my memory card..but it wont let me see 'em...& my pc can't recognise video/music files....so will have to wait 'til i'm either round someone's house or i get my laptop for xmas! xD we'll see which one comes first. ;)



they might appear before then anyway..that sometimes happens.






♫ a lonely life where noone understands you, but don't give up, because the music do.
^____^



the pics are up on facebook, but i'll attach a few onto this :)



it was really nice to meet Mali + Josh ^___^
bit scary to begin with 'cause i had to walk over to them and i was having a nervy b inside. :L
but they're both really nice :)
her and Josh make a super sweet couple.



hmmm i never know what to do on Mondays.
probably should be doing an assignment....but CEEEEEBS.
ugh. practical tomorrow.
-___-
butttttt dog grooming :D yey. ♥
i thoroughly enjoy that lesson ^_____^



i watched Bride Wars earlier for the first time and ended up bawling :
at the end, it was going on about finding that person who will always be there for you and understands yourself better than you do etc, they could come in the form of a spouse or best friend...........
the last bit was the bit that got me........
i don't really know what to do atm.
it's all very well Jee saying i have best friends, i have her, Bibbs + the college lot etc....
but you can't just wipe away 9 years?
NINE whole years of my life.
9 out of 17.
that's the majority of it.
over half of my life..
so i don't really know.....that's all i can say, it's hard to explain.
i'm just kind of floating about between people.






not that she cares.
she's obviously so caught up in him that our friendship doesn't mean anything to her anymore.
ho hum eh.
it's not me in the wrong.






i'm actually glad about going to Lincoln next year.
or wherever i'll end up going (but hopefully Lincoln!)...
just to get away from everything.
there's too many memories everywhere.
memories of everyone..of happier times.
i just need a fresh start.
so i'll trip my way through college.
& hopefully stumble into university next September..






ohand something i realised this morning....
i've been signed up for Functional Skills Maths on a Thursday evening, like 5.30-8 or something.....
but my counsellor said the Group Anxiety Therapy i've also been signed up for is on a Thursday evening...
and that i'm not allowed to miss any :.......
soooooooooo what am i meant to do?
if i miss Maths there's the risk of not getting into Uni or at least not onto the higher course.
but if i don't go to the anxiety group...i have to live with my head screwing around with me even longer.....they only do the group once every so often...and i'm not sure if the next one will be on a different day......






so i really don't know what to do................
advice would be welcome.
kthx.






xx

1 comment:

  1. Is there a different time you could do the Maths class? If not, I would call your counsellor and ask what she thinks. She won't tell you to sacrifice your education for the group and you don't know how helpful it will actually be. I'm sure there will be another group you can attend too. That's what I would do!
    It was nice to meet you too <3

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